27. February 2013 · Comments Off · Categories: Fiction, Nikki, Romance

If you Stay by Courtney Cole, 354 pages, read by Nikki, on 02/25/2013

417XF32olrL._BO2,204,203,200_PIsitb-sticker-arrow-click,TopRight,35,-76_AA278_PIkin4,BottomRight,-64,22_AA300_SH20_OU01_Pax Tate is a rich bad boy who has a lot of demons he never dealt with. Instead he uses drugs to block out bad memories and to fill his void of being empty and sad. Pax’s mother died when he was 7 and his father never fully got over his wifes death. After his mom died Pax’s father moved him away from everything he knew which only made things worse.

Mila Hill is an artist who loves Lake Michigan. One night while she was out taking photos of the lake she happened upon Pax, who was overdosing on coke in his car. Mila saves Pax by giving him mouth to mouth and calling 911. After that night she goes to the hospital to check on Pax. There she sees how attractive he is and he’s amazed that this beautiful woman would stop and help him even though she didn’t know him. He instantly wants to quit doing drugs and be the man Mila deserves to have.

This book started out with the overdose. It’s difficult for me to read a book involving drugs, but I do enjoy seeing somebody’s point of view in why they do drugs and what it does for them. I know the author wrote this book with a friend of hers in mind who had a drug problem and eventually got help. Though I think depending on another person and wanting to get clean for that person is just another way of avoiding the issue. I mean what if they broke up? Would he go back to using? Just thinking that you’re the reason someone got clean could be very overwhelming. I would feel like I’m constantly walking on thin ice with that person. The author did make it clear that you have to get clean because you want to, not for someone else, which I thought was important. But the fact that him overdosing and temporarily dying wasn’t the main reason he wanted to get clean. Also, there’s a point in the story where you find out how Pax’s mother dies. That was unimaginable. Though I did also read that the author got that part from a news article she read that stuck with her for years. Basically what I’m saying is that I cried a lot with this book…which makes it kind of hard to read when you have water drowning your eyes.

Comments closed.